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wonder
02:52
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You tell me nothing really matters
I have to turn around and say
Wake up and find a little wonder (wonder)
In your soul
How can you dismiss this magic?
This place is bursting at the seams
Wake up and find a little wonder (wonder)
In the world
Your fear of loss keeps you at bay
But loss is what gives grace its name
Wake up and find a little wonder (wonder)
In your soul
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2. |
take it back
03:28
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Oh my how it flies
In the face of all your plans but I
Still try to be a mystery
To measure up to all life’s unpredictabilities
It’s often that I forget
Change my name as never to be tracked
By death but on the way
I think I lost myself inside an endless day
It’s funny how in my search for love
I found myself and no one else
And then I found the I could clear(hold) the space
Cause when I had that simple view
Of all I was and all I knew
I knew I had a place for you in my heart
It's funny when I had you tucked in
All of my old fears they came creeping in
Cause now I had something that I could lose
And the better I am my loss is a greater loss to you
And like that the wave rolled back
Everything I thought I handled was still
Nagging from the depth
I think my head is broken won’t you take it back?
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3. |
everyday
03:50
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I can’t stop thinking about you
Every day your face etched into
All the mountains and the trees
The oceans and the breeze
What am I to do?
Everyday I think about you
Babe I know this road has been many times reinforced
Even admitting it is something we’ve done before
So how can forgetting it be an option anymore, love
Those of us who hold on to it
Write all these songs to let go
And the world falls back on the comforts that were defined in youth
Paths that are traced countless times providing nothing new
We’re wading in water waiting to be blessed a fresh view, Truth
Requires that you trail blaze and forget everything you knew
And it’s hard not to be a copy of a copy
The more reinforced the harder to forget thee
The longer it lasts the more present it will be
Awareness is the key
Still…
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4. |
tall order
03:14
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You look at yourself
Like you’ve done many times before
But it’s one of those times you notice
How much your face has changed
And then it brings you back
To a time when you were young
And wondering’ about that face
You’re looking at now
I suppose that it’s a tall order
To see all the processes of nature
At every level
In every moment of time
To be completely in touch
To know everything at once
My mind
Tries to climb to the top of the order
Just to find the floor again
And I guess this floor has different furniture
But it’s a floor nonetheless
And it’s true I could get used to this room
Hell, I could even learn to like it
But then I’ll notice that face again
I’ll have to start climbing
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5. |
started as rain
02:56
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I’m not gonna fight it
Floating down the river it’s all decided
We started as rain
And slide down to where we meet again
Now I feel like I can do anything
At least anything within these bounds
Set a target follow through
Your dreams will come around
And now
You’re thinking about how
It’s funny how in any moment
You could walk out the door and meet a person
And talk about life
And then you’ll find many doors open
I am here to receive
To believe that everything will find its place
To take tragedy and its lessons with patience and grace
And change
The fabric of my brain
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6. |
many causes
01:36
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I’m all wrapped up in many causes
All tied up in many causes
Many causes to affect
My life wrapped up in many causes
Head imagines many causes
Many causes of my death
We trace the many causes
of the pain that left it’s tracks
They cross more than we would like
We point fingers at many causes
Throw strangers under the buses
They will never get to me
To find a peace from many causes
Reap the feast of causes
Conspiracy need be complete
We try to change the causes
Even stop them in their tracks
What’s left, is all an effect
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7. |
both/and
04:35
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How could we know?
Truly what makes these rivers flow?
And why the ocean of the mind is whole
And if divine designs lack all control
How can it be both/and
When we’ve seen cause and effect?
And maybe it’s the future that dictates the past
Like a flower bending toward the light you walk straight into death
Determinism is a bitch but maybe it’s both/and
Both/And
Both/And
How could there be nothing if everything exists?
Homonym
You cry with happiness and cherish pain instead
Born of a beautiful mind
Why are you wasting your time?
And here we sit in the cancer of our own making
Instead of contending with the house of god and all it takes
To make something of yourself, become legend, found a kingdom
Build your walls and forget that god was once in sight in every waking
Moment in your life
Showing you the signs that it’s both/and
Both/and
Try to be better but the better leads to bad
Homonym
Sometimes you win the battle by surrendering
Born of a beautiful mind
It would’ve treated you right
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8. |
the pattern
04:21
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It’s a thought that you have with your feelings
It’s a word that defines several meanings
It’s a thing in your head that repeats til the end
Even then it could repeat again and again
It’s a love that pulls endlessly forward
A gravity no one can ignore
It’s a force that defines all you are in your mind
Do you mind not reminding me
One day you’ll figure it out
In fact, I think you already did
And it’s gonna catch up with you
One day you’ll figure it out
In the end
The Pattern
Reveals itself (yourself) to you
It’s a paradox imbued with reason
A phenomenon betrayed by seasons
It’s a world you create with your thoughts and mistakes
And your passions and love will direct everything
So watch out!
Listen to yourself
Don’t let anybody else!
Tell you anything at all!
About who you are my friend!
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Toni Dear Santa Fe, New Mexico
I write songs and create productions. All Indie DIY
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